2010-08-11 10:56:37 UTC
So I did...I thought I would learn something new and get to be around horses more (because up until now I couldn't even stay to tack up my horse because we have volunteers and other students that do that) But I didn't learn a thing...
I felt like nobody really wanted me there and that I was just getting in the way of everyone.
Because i'm new to all of this, when I was asked to bring something (a horse or a tool or a brush etc.) and I started asking stuff like where is it , what horse, where to put something etc. they just acted cold and gave me this 'oh fine, I'll get it myself, just don't get in the way' kind of face...
So basically I haven't learned or done anything in these 3 hours that I spent there!
And they (the volunteers and other students...) are all so independent, they can do whatever they want , they know all of the horses, they can go get them, decide when to wash them etc... they don't need anybody's 'ok' for that!! unlike me...I can barely go and pet a horse without a permission!
So all I was doing in those 3 hours was just sit and do nothing!! And it was really annoying to get orders and be told what to do by a 10 year old T_T
And i really wanted to help...
They all seem to get along with each other well and know each other and I'm just in the way:(
It's like when you look for a job and every place you go to, they tell you they want someone with experience...but because nobody won't hire somebody without any experience there's no place to get that experience, you know what I mean?
So I don't know what to do...should I go there again? or is it better not to waste my time and just come for the lessons?
I mean I don't know how long will it take until they treat me like I'm one of them...Maybe never!